You've been doing a lot of contributing, for a long time.
Could it be that you don't realize?
Be kind to your eyes with all that reading
What occurs to me is that - in my case - I have reached an understanding with the world around me.
I learn whatever I learn about life first-hand, and test everything I learn, myself, to see if it works.
If it works, I retain it. If it doesn't, it gets the boot.
I realize most people don't do this.