Certainly we are 'speaking past each other'. This is a phenomenon that dogs me.
There is no effective way to explain what I always attempt to explain, and that I do attempt to explain for the very reason that it is such a priceless thing. It is, apparently, inexplicable. But it operates as I have said. No processing. If you're able to perform this feat, that actually is the total absence of any feat, then everything changes.
Why do I do this thing, anyway, if it is so impossible, and so thankless?
Imagine if a man discovered that it was, indeed, possible for a human to fly, unassisted. He would, in all likelihood, be ardently interested in sharing that with other people, no? Maybe he wouldn't, but I would.
And then imagine everyone getting really angry at him, and abusing him, because everybody 'knows' people can't fly.
He gets called an idiot, and a moron. Yet he is able to fly, when nobody else can.
That's about the size of it. I have knowledge of something that is far too big to not share.
But it is impossible to successfully share it.
What would you do?