I cannot appear to be anything but what I am. It is somehow impossible for me to even try to be something I am not. I used to think of this as a handicap, but now I see it as a strength.
Still, I cannot control how others percieve me. And often, people have very strange ideas about who or what I am. They think that I think a lot of things, which I've really never thought about. Furthermore, they think that I act in accordance with these imaginary thoughts, which is just crazy. To me at least.
I like to believe that I spend all my energy on self-development, and that I don't really give ego a thought. But still, I may appear as if I spend a great deal of energy on appearences to others.
I guess the end I spend my energy on isn't necessarily within my own conscious control.