I want to say that that makes me more proud to be an honest person, but it really doesn't, because everyone over the age of twelve should be more honest than that. And I want to say I'm appalled that adults could exhibit such behavior, but I'm not. When I think about it, I see people like that every day. I know some decent people who are like that. When I try to tell them that almost all of their decisions and opinions are based on social acceptance, I usually get called weird. If I press the issue, they go silent, and I can almost hear the gears grinding in their head, as if, if they accepted that idea for even a moment, their whole world would come crashing down on them. And then I just get called weird again.
Everyone tells me it's great to be young. I hate it, because this shit still gets to me. I can't wait to be old and not give a shit.