All right -
I am a Christian as I follow Christ wherever he takes me.
But what is Christ? He is the God-Man: 'God' meaning reality in all its mystery. 'Christ' meaning the real man infinitely beyond the flaws of what we usually call 'humanity'.
I've read the new testament many many times. I reached a point where I felt I understood everything in it perfectly. I understood what Christ 'represented', the meaning of his words, his death and his resurrection. I saw it all as an allegory or metaphor for existence as such.
And then I realized that I really didn't understand anything at all.
I was in the forest and the sun was setting. The birds sang. The treetops were swaying gently in the wind, as I leaned back against a tree and just took in the darkening forest, the sounds, the all. And Christ was in it all.
"Christ redeemed us from the curse of the law by becoming a curse for us—for it is written, “Cursed is everyone who is hanged on a tree”" - Galatians 3:13
It didn't make sense at all. It was experience. It wasn't supposed to make sense - and trying to make sense of it would be truly nonsensical.
"Christ redeemed us from the curse of the law..."
The law is the old way of looking at things. It may make perfect sense intellectually - but it isn't it. There is 'something' beyond. As many of you have allready said: Words can't reach this place - but they can hint at it.
Now, I am working on making this 'place' my permanent dwelling - a serious task. "For the gate is small and the way is narrow that leads to life, and there are few who find it."
-All this being said, I recognize that there are many ways of reaching the spirit. Christ is but one.