It was during the early stages of my very first acid trip - I was either 15 or 16 - that I realized with a blinding flash of certainty, that all the rules, stances, attitudes and values of my native society were completely arbitrary.
Interestingly, this revelation didn't make me scorn it, and want to destroy it.
I could see immense value in my civilization, in spite of the falsity of its foundations. It was a great thing.
But it had no connection with nature, or the natural order of things. It was entirely made-up.
Try as I might, I could never again subscribe to it, though, or see it in anything like the same way.
From that day, I've been like Robinson Crusoe, operating on, and outside of, the fringes of the world of people.
Civilization really couldn't afford to have its young people doing acid.
But neither could it stop it.