You want a reason to go on with this website Prozak?
Ha ha ha...
Your weariness is understood.
But your cowardliness is unacceptable. Shake it off now, my friend. It is not befitting for a soul like you.
You act according to eternal principles, not immediate effects. You preserve and promote quality art because it deserves it, not because you egotistically want to see a favorable, tangible effect right away, and besides, the best advantages and gratifications are always long-term and never short-term. Stop this emo complaining about how it's hard, how there's no time, how the audience is unworthy and unhelpful. You keep a space open because, even if not today, someday a handful of kids might come along and will want a place to discuss (and later act on) ideas, a very metal activity if you ask me.
You fight because you were designed to, not because it might benefit you.
Pick up your bow and get back on your chariot.
This life is a war.
And you have come to win.