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March 10, 2014, 05:38:23 PM
My earliest childhood was a very happy one. But when I reached school-age, and became imbedded in a social-setting larger than my neighbourhood and local friends, I gradually grew more secluded and insecure. So I withdrew into myself.

At some point, I realized that this wasn't so cool, being downright scared of other people. So I got to work, and gradually came out of my shell.

This process included quite a lot of embarrasing moments for me, as I knew nothing of how to behave in a social setting, and so often made an ass out of myself. There was a lot of shame - but shame is something you get over, though it feels like it'll be there forever, when it's going on.

Eventually I managed to kill off most of my social insecurities, and before I knew it, being around other people didn't bother me that much anymore.

But as I grew accustomed to others, I started to notice something strange.

Back when I was insecure, I never really saw the behavior of others. I was too caught up in my own feelings of awkwardness - but as these feelings started to reside, I lost the pathological self-awareness, and my mind became free to absorb what was actually going on around me.

What I started to notice was, that all my socially adapt peers also had a million insecurities, that I just never noticed before. Theirs just weren't connected with being social as such - but they were insecure with regards to almost everything else: Feeling alone, unintelligent, ugly, unwanted etc.

Where I had been busy tackling what I saw as my own flaws, they hadn't even considered that their own insecurities were something that could be fixed. Instead, they had been socializing and bonding over these feelings of inferiority.

They got together to complain, and constantly affirmed each other as victims of all the greater and smaller 'injustices of the world'. And because of this very affirmation, they felt justified in not doing anything about their problems.

Either that, or putting others (or each other) down, so they could individually feel better.

They were basically using each other as excuses: 'Everybody is miserable, so why shouldn't I be?

That was when I realized, that these were the very things that I had never been able to do. This was why I withdrew into myself in the first place - because I never believed that misery could do anything good for me.

Re: Insecurity
March 10, 2014, 07:24:40 PM
Here, here! The reason average people think introverts are weird is because they don't have the courage to examine themselves objectively the way that introverts can.

Re: Insecurity
March 11, 2014, 03:20:03 AM
That's a worthwhile observation, and pretty well sums up my experience.

Perhaps this is why introversion is met with such suspicion.

'They are living life in a way, that none of us have the courage to. There must be something wrong with them'

Re: Insecurity
March 15, 2014, 08:19:13 PM
From my own resources, examining the self is painful if you can admit truth but don’t like what you see. That is why so few people are able to do it, even in these insane times where the world basically revolves around the self. Others see this but cannot overcome it, resorting to fatalistic attitudes i.e. “I don’t care who I am – the world will have to put up with it”. Though eventual confrontation with the true self is an inevitability.

Actually seeing yourself (what a genius you are, what a knucklehead you are) and accepting whatever it is, is the first step to moving beyond it (as far as 'I' can tell). Anxiety about the world and connection to self is poison, and yet oddly enough this same poison is the fuel that is necessary for overcoming it. Another paradox.


Re: Insecurity
March 15, 2014, 10:52:21 PM
Its more likely that people are suspicious of introverts because its harder to read their intentions.

Re: Insecurity
March 15, 2014, 10:57:46 PM
Would you say Eric Burdon was an introvert?
I ask because I remember him being very hard to read.


Re: Insecurity
March 16, 2014, 12:08:37 AM
Never heard of him until now. Looking at random interviews, something seems unusual with his mannerisms. Probably hes just burnt out from too many drugs haha.