Trying hard is a concept that was dumped on me when I was young.
Up to that point, I just faced life with a benign smile. It was fun.
But, suddenly, as if from nowhere, I was forced to give up simply living, and made to try hard to live.
And end to play. From now on, drudge.
Many, many years later, after endless drudgery that got me nowhere, I rediscovered that living really isn't about trying hard. Living is about living. It is only about drudge if you place no value on living.
I decided living was more important than drudge, and live I would, in the time remaining.
Drudge is doing. Living is doing not-doing. Not-doing still needs to be done, in order to live.
But doing is infinitely easier when you are not-doing it.
The paradox of survival. It's actually quite easy. You succeed until you don't.
And when you don't, there is no more need to try.