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Interzone / Re: A.D.
« on: August 27, 2013, 06:25:03 AM »
For the record, I am not as you, or many others are, any more.
I can no longer do whatever it is you are doing. I can not process it or respond to it, without active thought.
And I do not actively think, unless I have a vital problem to solve.
None of this is vital, nor a problem. Why would I bother with it? All I would end up with is a headache.

In fact, the words that people write generally go right past me. They are mostly meaningless.
I take note of the theme, the intent, the white space between, and see galaxies of information.
I know you by what you don't say, as much as by what you do say.

But none of it intrudes, because it can not. Unless it is genuine, sincere, true.
There is precious little of that, around here, and mostly what there is of it comes to me by way of PMs.

I regret I am not as you expect me to be. It must be irritating. But it allows me to remain what I am, and I am what I am only through many years of having no idea of what I was, but knowing I had to find out. Now I am what I admire. That's a good start, eh?

Please don't ask me for any more explanations, unless your intent is true. Because mostly, if not always, it isn't.



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Interzone / Re: A.D.
« on: August 27, 2013, 06:06:40 AM »
I would rather leave subjective chatter to the billions who know no other mode of operation.
Nothing, other than the thought processes of humans, has any 'meaning'. All of it is what it is. It does what it does. It makes no apologies or excuses.
You might say I have managed to move beyond meaning, into a realm where meaning is meaningless.
This is my obscure connection with 'nihilism', I suppose.
Clearly, this would create communication problems with people who know nothing but subjective meaning.

The idea I fruitlessly (mostly) attempt to put across, is that I have something unheard-of to offer.
A view you never see. A thought you never have. A way you never found. A vision you never dreamed.
Some love it. Most hate it.
That's life.

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Interzone / Jaguar.
« on: August 27, 2013, 05:10:05 AM »
I dreamed, last night, that beyond my woodshed, where garden gives way to forest, a Jaguar presented itself to me.
I say presented, because this was precisely what it did. It stood, grinning faintly, all teeth and spotty camouflage.
It was redder than Jaguars generally are, but it could have been nothing else.

I was aware of the advisability of arming myself, with some makeshift weapon or other, although I really didn't feel inclined to, and the creature appeared to offer no threat.

To a crow, this was clearly a totem spirit animal. With a message, a test, and a gift.
Heroism and valour. Grace and power. Poise and agility. But little endurance.
Fierce and lethal, but get the job done fast, before energy fades.
Do the deed from behind, not full frontal assault.
Meter out energy. No unnecessary motion.
Stealth and patience. Silence and senses.

Absolutely no deathmetal :)

Mostly a totem animal will appear in the flesh.
But those that appear in dream or trance, must, not being indigenous to the target's location.
I've never even seen a Jaguar, let alone dreamed of one.
Mysterious...


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Interzone / Re: A.D.
« on: August 27, 2013, 04:51:16 AM »
That is why Crow is moderator, and this signals to me that the owner is most devoted and self-obsessed with his website.


Astute. But he is not self-obsessed. Although he may be obsessive about his work.

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Interzone / Re: A.D.
« on: August 27, 2013, 04:48:57 AM »
Enlightenment, as hinted-at, repeated and exhaustively described, previously.
A preview of death.
Having previewed it, I describe what I know of it.
Unfortunately, if the reader/listener is not suitably equipped to respond in wonder, curiosity and openness, any description will convey only baseless gibberish.

What I know of the subject at hand is this:
'Heaven' is that state one may ascend to if one is able to relinquish one's identity.
'Hell' is the descent that is inevitable to any who cling to identity.


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Interzone / Re: A.D.
« on: August 27, 2013, 01:02:21 AM »

Can I ask, benignly, why did you put your hand up to moderate a death metal forum in this case?


How many times do I have to explain this???
I didn't put my hand up, apply, or otherwise volunteer.
There was this forum, see, and its owner, with whom I have had dealings with over several years, recognized the boundless extremes of talent I possess, on many fronts, over many subjects. He was also aware that I shared many of his political and lifestyle views, in addition to being sufficiently mature for the task at hand.
He enquired as to whether I might like to try sorting out the ugly chaos that previously reigned, here, since nobody else seemed able, or willing to.
So here I am. The content is of no consequence. It is the human interaction I am concerned with. Period.

But since I spend time here, I put it to good use, honing my ability to endure the previously unendurable, without becoming in any way upset, emotional, or crazy.

How am I doing?


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Interzone / Re: A.D.
« on: August 27, 2013, 12:53:06 AM »
Your unwillingness to hypothesize is mildly infuriating!

Aha! There's an advantage I had not considered  :)

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Interzone / Re: A.D.
« on: August 26, 2013, 09:09:48 PM »
I don't know what it is, other than it is something I instinctively avoid.
But there are quite a few things I feel the same way about: people, in general, for example.
I really have no need to know why this is, although I'm sure if I considered it, I could come up with all kinds of reasonable hypotheses.
But I am not going to, because, really, it doesn't matter what I think.

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Interzone / Re: A.D.
« on: August 26, 2013, 07:25:50 PM »
What I wrote is what I meant. Yes.

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Interzone / Re: A.D.
« on: August 26, 2013, 03:48:08 PM »
Deliberately offensive. Painful. Opposite of beauty. Decomposition as art. Industrial cacophony as anthem.
As you say: I am old. It took me many years to become so, and it was mostly not easy.


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Interzone / Re: A.D.
« on: August 26, 2013, 03:53:34 AM »
Fair enough, then. I had suspected as much.
Now: if people could see beauty in death, rather than ugly...

How would that impact Purpose?

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Interzone / Re: A.D.
« on: August 26, 2013, 03:43:18 AM »
A purely human construct, then, bound up in subjective ego.
Meaning, for me, has little to do with that. Although I understand the way in which ego employs it.
To ask, for example, "what is the meaning of life?", is to wonder what life is, and how it is supposed to serve the one asking the question.
Thus 'meaning' is most often a way for an ego to assign hierarchy to something, but assign it always a lower spot than itself.
Purpose, is different. "What is my purpose?" How may I serve this life-thing, as opposed to how may it serve me.

Anyway, we already know that most communication is no such thing.
Meaning, itself, has become a concept too abstract to understand.



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Interzone / Re: A.D.
« on: August 26, 2013, 02:54:53 AM »
Meaning is that which follows manifestation. You might call it 'effect'.
Water flows over a cliff. It falls. The meaning of this is water following the laws of Reality.
The water reaches for the lowest place it can be.
It subordinates itself to gravity.
Water, itself, has no use for meaning. It does what it must.
Humans require meaning, until they no longer require it, to define their Reality.



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Interzone / Re: Head in the clouds
« on: August 26, 2013, 02:49:56 AM »
This is the generally-unknown key to martial-arts.
Technique can only take you so far.
Empty the mind, think no thoughts, process nothing, and physical assaults slow enough to be easily turned aside.
The one who can do this, at will, lives with an immediacy known to none, while appearing, to others, to be slowed-down.
His movements, when he chooses to move, are too fast to see.
He never looks away.

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Interzone / Re: A.D.
« on: August 26, 2013, 01:52:51 AM »
Point to a meaning in the world? That's a strange challenge.
The world, the cosmos, life, evolution, all are meaning(s).
Meaning has zero to do with the human condescension of doling one out.
Reality is its own meaning, as life is, to us, if we even get to being able to recognize it.

As for 'objective', nothing a human does is objective, unless that human has aligned himself with reality.
Subjective is the only view an ego is capable of. Objective only results from ego abandonment.

I don't know what truth you are referring to, as being ugly. Truth is beauty, to me.
What is great art, anyway? Who decides? I've seen art I liked, but none ever 'moved' me.
But perhaps deathmetal is art to those who can see it as that.
I can't, personally, but that is neither here, nor there.
I imagine it fulfills the role of a catalyst, of sorts.


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