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Interzone / Re: Does this Whale make me look good?
« on: January 05, 2014, 08:00:02 AM »
The number of whale slaughters dropped drastically during world war II.

Thanks homie. Ah, such majesty!


In related news, I once saw two whales at the beach. I, of course, stopped in my tracks to go and watch them. A film crew were there, and I waved at them. That night they showed it on the news, and everyone saw me waving. im famus nao

I guess you could say, that whale made me look good.

Interzone / Re: Objective, subjective or perceptive
« on: January 05, 2014, 04:31:00 AM »
You can argue about it allll dayyy longgg.

But at the end of the day, which is going to be blasting from your speakers?

(for me, it's a coin flip)

Interzone / Re: Happy New Year
« on: January 05, 2014, 12:52:15 AM »
You're all Prozak except for me. I am Prozak's protégé.

2013, what a year! A year of good luck, bad luck, and magic.

Interzone / Re: Which is the Soul, Exists??
« on: January 05, 2014, 12:07:18 AM »
One brief point: when I say "cult", I am using the term because others were using the term for the group and it is the term I have chosen to use for now to discuss a phenomena which is confusing to me (however, really I have no solid knowledge of whether this said cult were paying any direct attention to me at all, and how much of the supposed mental manipulation was simply in my head).

I will return soon to discuss further when I am in a different mood.

Interzone / Re: Which is the Soul, Exists??
« on: December 26, 2013, 11:40:35 PM »
My last psychotic state was enjoyable anyway. I had conveniently "forgotten" how to talk coherently, and instead would yell battle cries, which consisted mainly of the word "wu" in a certain melodic progression. Then the police picked me up, I thought they were going to rape me. "Who said my sister's name?" I questioned, aggressively. "Oh it wasn't me" said the policeman. "Well was it you?" I asked to the other. "No, no, it must have been my partner". "Oh, so it was YOU!". "No, no, it wasn't me!". Then I started accusing all the police of being homosexuals, and boy did they get defensive.

The cult was an internet cult (except for the "privileged few"). I make much more of it that it really is. Used MBTI as a tool to strip people of their identity, and hypnotise with over-rationalised logic and buzzwords. I was very indirectly involved, but not knowing what the fuck I was reading, I became very confused and took it all quite seriously. I thought they were going to kill or rape my friend, which is the sort of thing I believe they try to trick people into believing. Quite distressing. It all seemed like schoolyard bullying taken to the next level. Very childish. One of the top members killed herself, probably after realising there was no actual mission they were trying to achieve, it was just the sad excuse of a cult leader trying to hold power over people. Then some supposed ONA practitioner got involved and started trying to recruit random youtubers. It all made no sense.

I will leave it there. I am starting to use this forum as a sounding board for my paranoia. Besides, this whole internet cult has left me even more skeptical of the internet than is even necessary. Even this site. And then it crosses (in my beliefs) into real life and oh dear.

Interzone / Re: Which is the Soul, Exists??
« on: December 26, 2013, 05:41:41 PM »
First things first; stop any drug use, lay off reading of abstract things like symbols and gods, politics, philosophy. Some classic fiction or survival tales (Jules Verne, HG Wells, Isaac Clarke) are good to read instead.

Start working out when you get opportunities. You're probably not yet close to 30 years old, so really push to defeat yourself; your body should be able to handle it. Stay sore, stay hungry. This is the ritual used to eradicate confusion. Decisions will become less daunting, you will be sure of what you need to do. Don't even worry about building muscle or burning calories, just move that body until it begs for mercy. Walk long distances. If you know someone who plays chess (a rarer thing as days pass), play with them.

Don't worry about going crazy, it is very unlikely, impossible for most people. Just do things that you know are good for you, for now.

Yes, drugs are not good for my mind state whichever way you look at it. It also means people who know you do them are going to blame all of your problems on them. How frustrating.

Yes, I have had thoughts already for a long time to put my self through strenuous physical exercise and the like. Who doesn't? It may be done, probably after some other things are sorted. Like, I'm still not convinced that I am out of this "cult". The one thing that makes me think I am, is that.. why the hell would anyone waste so much time just to fuck around with someone's mind? But then I think of how pathetic people can be and it makes sense.

I go "psychotic" and it definitely is something to worry about. It's happened twice, it could happen again. But I take it it will never be a permanent state, it always feels like a build up of stress that gets let off in bizarre ways.

Interzone / Re: Winter Boozing
« on: December 26, 2013, 05:31:21 PM »
Maybe you should drink some and then see what you think.

Drugs are pretty fun. Alcohol can create a good social atmosphere, reduce inhibitions. Party tiem.

Does it really "kill brain cells"?

Interzone / Re: Which is the Soul, Exists??
« on: December 25, 2013, 06:31:50 PM »
Sometimes I feel that there is a whole layer of my thinking I need to get rid of. Two layers, really. One is the layer I have built up over the last few years, due to reading too much cult-like/mind-manipulating material. The other is the layer I have built up over my whole life. But do I really want to get rid of that layer? Wouldn't I just open myself up to foreign influence, like cults? I have this whole "I'm on a mission" thought process that springs up on me and sends me literally crazy, and I don't know for sure where it came from.  Am I brainwashed? Drug-fucked? Schizophrenic? Just maturing? Is this site doing me any good, or is it feeding delusions?

What does it mean for me to become more nihilistic? Is it good or bad? Certainly, it's about not even asking that question. It's a scary thought, like I would be sending myself crazy, but if someone has already done that to me maybe it is like their influence lingering after they have been removed from direct contact. Or maybe I truly would be sending myself "sane", having a clearer vision.

God, I'm such a confused soul!

Interzone / Re: Nature and anti-art
« on: December 25, 2013, 05:56:05 PM »
The pentagram symbolises the golden ratio. The different side lengths are in such a proportion.

This can be demonstrated much like proving Pythagoras' theorem. Observing common angle sizes and forming a ratio-based equation on the sides.

Interzone / Re: Morphine: the good, the bad, and the ugly.
« on: December 25, 2013, 05:50:36 PM »
As I get older, I get more thankful for not being able to handle my drugs well. One good bong-rip of hydroponically grown marijuana makes me go insane. Four hours of paranoiac, hypomanic hell. And prolonged use makes my whole world like that. This is what keeps me away from hard drugs more than anything. If I can't even handle pot, I should probably stay far away from everything else.

I used to handle my pot well.

Then I accidentally joined a cult.

Now when I smoke I get paranoid.


Interzone / Re: Winter Boozing
« on: December 25, 2013, 05:44:44 PM »
What are the benefits of alcohol?

Interzone / Re: Which is the Soul, Exists??
« on: December 23, 2013, 04:15:28 AM »
My friend said there was a sparrow following around a crow near her home around this time

Some people call this "synchronicity". It should never be ignored or taken for granted.

I'm glad I just remembered it, actually.

Next time should be an owl.

Interzone / Re: Fullmoon
« on: December 23, 2013, 02:24:27 AM »
People being affected by the seasons?

Bullocks! Next time you'll be saying astrology is real!

Interzone / Re: Which is the Soul, Exists??
« on: December 22, 2013, 05:40:13 PM »
I don't know if I've had revelations,
but according to others I'm delusional,
so maybe I have.


(mind you, the stuff you write had a fairly significant influence on my last "delusional" state, make of that what you will - in my first delusion, I was persecuted by a sparrow, in my second I was given new life by a crow. My friend said there was a sparrow following around a crow near her home around this time)

Interzone / Re: Which is the Soul, Exists??
« on: December 22, 2013, 04:39:54 PM »
You can't not believe in non-material things can you? That's just our ability to view things in abstract terms.

When we use terms like God, all we can be referring to is something psychological, just as when we refer to a Dog we are simply referring to something that has entered into our consciousness as a Dog-like being. Multiple people can be in the same room and see something and agree that it is a dog, and multiple people can be in the same room and discuss something they call a god.

I have never seen a god or a photon, but I have seen a dog, and that I guess is the difference.

Quote from: crow
the minority to end all minorities.

Haha! Makes me think of revelations...

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