When I was at age 16 I started drinking (with friends) because I accidentaly discovered that it was a pleasant experience and a way to communicate with others in a non-routine sense. For three years (16, 17, 18) I drank at parties, at the end of school on special occations, in (greek) taverns, always with friends who drank too. I drank like 1 liter of wine at max (I am a tall guy regular weight). All was good way back then, at the surface, but underneath I was building a failure, and alcohol played a significant role in it.
About when I was 18, some mild failings at school happened, and this was exactly at the time of going into the adult world. A combination of things killed my spirit and I wasn't willing (or able) to understand that I was becoming a bitter burnout and better myself. Drinking at parties etc etc quickly gave it's place to drinking alone, or getting really drunk while others were just drinking one or two glasses. I felt and expressed the "need" to drink all day, but as I wasn't a moron I understood that It wasn't possible so I got into binge drinking. I would be sober for let's say 5 days, and drink heavily at friday night, and saturday night. However, these "sober" days narrowed more and more and the binge days widened. During the most extreme drinking "era" I would binge drink for 4 days or even 5 and be sober for 3, 4, at max. The darkness was about to cover the light, it was 50/50% metaphorically and literally. I was starting to experience some withdrawl symptoms, NOT hangover, but withdrawal after days of binge drinking. Annoying things like irritation, that damned and disturbing insomnia, an ugly feeling (that I have never read in any article or site about alcohol withdrawal) like muscle soreness combined with some strange mild burning sensation in the body, ugly smell and taste. Looking back at that period I just don't know what to think.
It all started changing when a series of events happened, I started valuing "being the voice of reality" and not being a hippie, I started changing from an extreme communist to a more traditional type, generally I underwent a change of values. In addition to that I had a small accident caused by alcohol that left me a tiny scar, it wasn't so painful or scary but it was COMPLETELY MEANINGLESS AND RIDICULOUS, I just fell running like an idiot, drunk. I thought: "What the fuck am I doing, what is the purpose of all this?" And the purpose was nothing, I was just a death worshipper who was acutally afraid to look his life in the eyes and say "I am not afraid, I am marching forward, I am going to get what I desire long term and create" like I did after all this. However, the void must be filled with something, and I wasn't able to quit and go sober immediately. Nevertheless, I stopped the binge drinking, I reduced the times I would drink at all, and discovered activities that fill the void (for example writting metal music or physical excercise).
What lesson I got from all this? There are MANY MANY fake people out there, that don't admit that they drink for a reason, most drink to suppress their fears and their inability to talk to girls or general incomfortability. When you admit it "I drink because I am a fucking coward" then you will gradually (not instantly) start to change this and challenge yourself in healthy activities. In a more ridiculous and lowest-common-denominator fashion, some drank (and smoked) just because it was "in" or wild whatever (those actually quit, not even actively, because they weren't ever in the game). Finally, there are many self-assured "wise men, intellectuals whatever" who never drank or smoked etc, some will say that were always wiser than you that indulged in these activities (that might be true at 1% but in nearly all cases it is fake), the reason they play this role is because they need to feel mature-since-birth and wiser than you to congratulate themselves that they have won over you in the power game. What a coincidence that almost all these people never had a normal sexual relationship (I am not kidding, this is not far-fetched).
Years later, I look at the bottles of alcohol with a cynical eye. I think it is all a fake shit, and actually orange juice has a nicer taste than most drinks, so just to drink for the booze is to escape reality. I just move on.